OGAY, that was offically the LAST post of this crappy blog.
I've lost all the shine in me..

10:33 PM!Y

OMGOSH.
i swear, this time, love has turned into HATE.
yes baby, hate.
i hate you, for being so selfish. i hate you, for loving only yourself. i hate you, for using me, unknowingly. i hate you, for giving false hopes. i hate you, for lying to me, time and time, yet again. i hate you, for being so superficial and materialistic. More importantly, i hate MYSELF for loving you. I hate myself, for falling into this pit of crap and whats not. I hate myself, for making the wrong judgement. Indeed, never judge a book by its cover. This time, I was wrong, so utterly wrong.
If only i could start over again, I swear, I wouldnt have even invest in this friendship.
The pay back that i receive really hurts.I feel like a total loser now. My life had been turned upside down. You made me skeptical about friendships. You make me feel that things would shine at first, but slowly, they will fade away. You made me realise that true love doesn't exist.
Hey now, the damage is done, i cant turn back on track. Help, is really what i need.

10:23 PM!Y

HANDS DOWN, YOU WON.

You really have a way in breaking someone's heart, don't you. Yeah, its so natural for you. You took it, gave me much hope, i admit, i was on cloud nine. I tried so hard to convince myself that you're serious to change this time, yes you will. But now, look where am I now? You broke it, broke it real hard. Wonder when can i just stop avoiding you. This sucks, my life has been turned upside down. Things aren't the same anymore. You used to be a part of me. A close & essential one. It hurts, so badly. You wont understand, accumulated issues makes it so difficult to explain. Maybe its just me & my imagination. Maybe its just over sensitivity, maybe i'm paranoid. Maybe I'm the cause of my own pain. This suck.

HANDS DOWN, you're the clear winner.

11:00 PM!Y

OH WAIT.
that wouldnt be the last post, whoooo.
An aussie christian band performed at our school today.
OH BOY, WERE THEY GOOD !
& the front man is HOT LIKE ANYTHING !
His stage persence is just FAB !
The drummer was LIKE SUPER WHOA as well !
HOHA, and Birthday girl CHRISTINE THERESE BUTTERCUP FERNANDO got called to stage and Zac (front man) shook her hand (!gasp!) & sang her a birthday song :D
But it'd be more fun with the sec3s.
They'd just scream, jump & shout till the technical block just tumble down.
oh boy, i can't wait for Wed's assembly !


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTHIN THERESE BUTTERCUP FERNANDO !!!!
Although its been less than a year, you have certainly brought much laughters, fun, sillie & CRAZY moments with you (just like today). REALLY, WANNA THANK YOU, for being sucha good friend, for being so crazy, supportive. Thanks for being the happy buttercup that can brighten up my bad days. You dont know how much you mean to me man ! YOU'RE JUST GREAT LA !

HAW. I love our crazy phrases we say.
* 5,6,7,8. HOW? *
*1,2,3. INTACT ! *
* yo, yo, yo . YO *
&many more....

alright, i shall try my best to take picture of Zac & Jeremy and post it (:
HOHA, call me mad.

11:30 PM!Y

mobbed, by the SJI boys & his female fans




















yeah yeah, that's DEB getting Clara's Macbeth signed.
omg, he's looking at her ! *faints




















tsk, just loooook at debbie's happy face, HOHA.





















HAWHAW, finally, a picture with JON !
tsk, but we stood too far apart, eh ?


Jon is the Casanova. Girls are crazy over him. He's got something about him; when he performs, you wanna watch. I make fun of him when he does the ( gestures ‘rock star with outstretched arms' pose ), but it works.
Quoted from Paul2hill.

hmmmmm, don't we all agree? YESSSSSS !!!

Alright, hmmm, this is gonna be my last post (maybe) as I'm deleting my blog soon. HOHA.

As this marks the end of everything, the every single effort I put to make things better. It was only this morning, around 1am? After recalling & looking back a everything. I decided that i couldnt take it any longer. I'm finally willing to let go, finally willing to give up. It was hard, many tears were shed over the years, but you never did understand. I've been mistreated and hurt, by your nonchalance. Many times i wish you could initiate, i wish you could be there for me. Many times i wish you would be the first, to find out, even just how my day was. But you never did, of course, HOHA. We're friends, of course we still will be. Just that we shall be happy times/hi-bye friends, i suppose.

Goodbye, My friend.

1:41 AM!Y

Doing my AIDS project now. HOHO, it couldn't be any fun-er. Should have taken the homosexuals segment from debbie, would be a hell lot more exciting. ANYWAYS, am i digressing a hell lot? Definitely. Been doing this since yesterday night, found my way from my blog, to 3eight blog, khym's blog, clara's blog, buttercup's blog (haw haw), friendster, youtube, singapore idol &the list just goes on. Darnit, & I'm still here, trying to finish it before 5. Gotta be at Jin's place at 6, hohoho hope we get some work done today!

CHEM LESSON
ever so ANNOYING buttercup broke some Jon news to me before chem officially starts. Man, & i couldnt concentrate for the whole 2 hours.I was freaking JEALOUS & envious ! Yeah, all thanks to Miss Christine Theresa Fernando.
" Oh okay, thank you. Monkey, you GOLDEN monkey. " HAW, i must admit he does look like sun wukong (:

JUSTINA. really very very very sorry that i couldnt meet up with you today. Blame it on my poor time management. Sorry, gotta rush this last minute work. I promise we'll meet up, SOON.

CLYDE, really sorry as well . Sorry that i couldn't accompany you. As you know, i gotta rush this last min work. Sorry, & i hope all goes well for you! I'd be TOUCHED, MOVED TO TEARS if I were to receive your handmade _ _ _ _ ! haw, have fun !


ALRIGHT. gotta stop digressing & get down to my project.
wankydoodles.

Today, you made me smile. I felt comforted that you told me even though it seems relatively unimportant & insignificant to you. HAW, you wouldnt believe that i was happy just by that. Because you never use to.

2:36 PM!Y

TODAY WAS A HAPPY GOOBLES DAY :D

YAY. it was mini makan trail with the 3eight-ers today (: THOSAI, BANGGGGGLES GALORE, BEANCURD. OOOH I LOVE THE FOODIES IN OUR CLASS, i like that spirit.
DONG, BARBIE, JIN, KHYM, HANNIE, SAV & DEBBIE, a makan trail once more ogay ! With more 3eight-ers of course ! Thanks guys, for the wonderful time i had today !

[BUTTERCUP! it's a pity you couldn't make it today. Nyehmind, we shall go again sometime ogay ! GET WELL SOON YA, I WANT TO SEE MY BUTTERCUP IN SCHOOL ON MONDAY (: *oooh you MOJOJOJO-]

that special 50cent coin that i shall neverrr use.
many many diamonds dan-ga-ling*

AFTER that, it was the suite life, high school musical & singapore idol over at DEBBIE's (: THANKS DEB, FOR EVERYTHING, i hope things would end up just as you want it to be. I'LL BE HERE FOR YOU !

CHLOE!! really really very sorry about today, i'll make it up ! SORRY !

11:05 PM!Y

i guess you have never made an effort to keep the friendship going. It didn't occur to you that it takes two hands to clap. I can't be the only one trying keep things together and get this relationship to work. It's useless, & i think the only one getting disappointed & hurt in the end will just be me, myself & I. I've tried hard but you just dont seem to change. Tell me, what must I do to make you start caring ? It'd be meaningless if i were to tell you straight in the face that you have been oblivious & insensitive, isn't it ? Well, i guess i can't force the sensitivity out of you either. I'm tired of trying, maybe i should just give up everything. 2 & a half years & nothing have changed, oh boyy, this sucks.

12:45 AM!Y

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